i'm a tad too upset to speak, but nonetheless, i still got some happy stuffs i wanna post about.  the bf was being his usual romantic and sweet self today.  so having said that, you should know what he did.  he did what any typical romantic guy would do to put on a wide grin on his girlfriend's face.  he came by this afternoon without warning just after phoning me and saying how busy he was at work, having to cover Jessie up till closing because she was on MC.  he said he couldn't meet me today because he ends work at night.  LOL.  it isn't something new that my bf would do to me.  it's something he often does.  yet, i still get butterflies when i see him at the door or finds out he has come to surprise me.  i know this sounds a bit too mushy for some of you, but to hell with that.

now about the part where i get a bit upset.  as usual, it's school that's dampened my mood.  mr zahed made an announcement to the sec 4s and 5s during recess earlier this morning and told us all the annual cross country is canceled because of dumb reasons like, 'you guys are going to sit for your Ns and Os in a few months!'  ya, you should get the drift :(  menses aren't making it any better anyways :(

alright.  enough with that.  i've got to go now.  i'm supposed to dry my uniform and undergarments before i sleep.   goodnight people!!

p/s.  about that nenek keropok- as people call her, just stop creating more rumours and stop believing in people's dumb talks.  it might have sounded amusing at the beginning, but it's getting lamer as it attracts attention through newspapers.  serious -.-

it's been a long week since i last blogged because the pc was being sent for rebooting.  when the computer was repaired, i just didn't have the heart to post anything.  hence, the dusty blog :)

i am currently using my maternal grandfather's hp in the meantime until i get my own phone (which is never going to happen -.-).  i have changed to a new number and to my friends who want it, please drop me your email address and i will personally give my number to you.  to whoever who has my number, please don't start passing it around cause it's very dang irritating to have strangers and unwanted people calling and texting you all the time.  i have yet to download msn Live!, bearshare/imesh etc., so please wait up for me ohok?  i promise it won't be long till i do so.  i'm just plain lazy at the moment (hehe).

anyways, i am very much looking forward to the 9th of august.  it's not because of the national day celebration, but because on that very same day, feezady will be celebrating our 21st monthsary together.  adie and i have made a deal.  i am supposed to cook him a special dish either on the 8th or 9th, but for now, i am lost for words.  i have yet to buy the ingredients, and time is running out.

school has been hectic (so what's new?), but everybody is still in the mood to slack and relax.  everybody's feeling sleepy and tired.  we get restless so easily.  omg.  whatever the hell is happening :(  our annual cross country is right around the corner.  it's held this friday at the japanese garden, and i can't believe this is the last time we are ever going to run for our cross country.  time flies too fast, come to think of it.  more than half the year has ended.  omg omg!

speaking of school, our pre-preliminary exams are just next week.  OMG!!!  i can't care less about the other subjects more than i do about my SS.  topic is going to be on Venice, which is why it's double the OMG cause topic on Venice is a tad diff to remember.  argh!  fcuk school for now.  i need my bf but he's working.  oh well :(  i hate it when his prepaid is condemned!!  damnit :/

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HaPpY sWeEt BeLaTeD 17tH bIrThDaY IkA :DDDDDDDDD

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will not be posting so much these days cause i need to start committing as much as i can to my studies.  yesterday was awesome with the boyfriend, and so was this morning.  i will always love you, adie :)  counting down to 4 more months ;)

now i'm off to woodlands with lyza.  cheers`

i feel like retaking my O level oral because i know i did badly for today.  mostly, i talked crap and my mouth just seemed to produce bullshit.  this is it.  i'm done for.  but still, while waiting for my turn to be examined, sitting with the mates really made me loosen up a bit.  i laughed like mad and managed to put aside the sick feeling of being nervous.  thank God for the good entertainment :)  & i didn't even realize how time flew till it was finally my turn to be called out.  thanks to Teha, the one and only.  i kept trying hard not to laugh thinking about this particular matrep story she told us about.  dang.  lucky i didn't burst out laughing while looking at the invigilator's mole on her cheek cause it just made me think about what ika told us before the exam.  LOL.  not to mention the private candidate of today's exam- a guy who resembles a mat step cool.  rimas aku tengok dier pakai skinnies larhh!  haha.  ohok now i can imagine taufiq in skinnies- PINK ones to be exact.  LOL!!  haisss...  ohok that one was Teha's lame joke.  but well ...  atleast today's the best of days in school whereby i can really pecah perot and literally feel like pissing in my skirt.  thank you guys :)

however, it was awkward at a certain point of time when taufiq and elly moved away to sit with the other mates, leaving the two chairs empty between an ex and me.  for over 5 years, we have never spoken a dang word to each other, and so i felt kinda stiff right there.  lol.  it's like when a bunch of people including myself and him were discussing some random crap, we  laughed hysterically without looking at each other.  i find this childish- i know!  but what to do??  haha.  i've never even made eye contact with him for over 5 years ohok.  so very the awkward laaa.  when will we ever be in talking terms again huh??  lol.

Lepak session with my dear friend today was canceled because dear friend had to work in the afternoon.  lucky i called dear friend up.  if not, i would have been waiting for dear friend like mad, then alas tkde org dtg.  anyhoos, i was mistaken about the dang geog test this morning.  it was only a short revision and brief overview of what we've learnt so far.  dang.  buat saya panic dan kanciong saje!  there will be a dang chemistry test tomorrow regarding mole concept 1 & 2.  i just hope i'll do well.  i suck in all these actually :(  we haven't even gotten back our first three quizzes regarding mole concept 1 and that means i don't even know if i fared well or just totally sucked at it...  *pulls a face*

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i can finally do my math ten year series cause i'm finally getting the hang of it (math, i mean).  i'm a very slow learner, mind you.  & i know some of you would ask why the hell do i bother to continue taking my O's when i just suck balls at everything right??  well, i have to think of my future you know- nomatter how suck balls i am at stuffs :/  english 10 year series is finally here and i have yet to pay mrs fern 3 bucks.  12 bucks is still pending for mr kamar regarding 5.2 class t-shirt.  dang.  i hate having creditors.  especially when they're my teachers.  lol.  speaking of creditors, i have yet to finish up on my POA homework- which was actually assigned to us two weeks ago.  still have two more sets of homework to complete, and then i'm all set to partyyyyyyyyy (like real -.-).  whatever.  gotta take my dang afternoon shower before i start to fall asleep while doing my assignments.  about the forum discussion about my MT stuffs tuu kan, plus chop confirm it is NOT in e-blaze ohok people!  so i don't see why i would bother to do it- if it doesn't exist in the first place -.-

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math remedial tomorrow :(  to the batch of people taking their O level oral tomorrow, i wish you guys the best of luck and try not to stare at the invigilators.  eye contact is good, but not so much.  it scared the hell outta me :/

p/s,  i hate FB for having to keep undergoing maintenance for pet society.  grrrrrrrrr >:[

it's my O level oral exam tomorrow and it starts at 2.30 pm.  due to the H1N1 case, nobody is allowed out of the school before the start of the exam.  school ends at 1:45 pm for goodness sakes!  -.-  that's the saddest part.  i can't breathe in some fresh air from outside the dang school before stressing myself out :(  i just hope all goes well and smoothly because i swear i do not want to retake my MT O level paper.  i wanna clear out one subject so i can jolly well concentrate on other more important subjects.  i got a lot to brush up on, especially my geography.  i used to LOVE that subject to the max, but not so much now.  i'm pretty much slacking in geog- a lot.  i love chemistry, yes i do.  but honestly, i've forgotten almost all that i've studied for in my earlier upper sec years.  crazy?  i know.  there was a revision test on geography this morning, and i swear i could have gotten them all correct if only i bothered to REMEMBER there would be a test today in the first place -.-  there will be another revision test on geography tomorrow regarding development.  MY FAVOURITE topic by far :)  and the simplest too! :D

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Belle is inviting me to baby Hariz's birthday celebration come 23rd June at Lakeside area but sadly, i won't be able to make it cause it's a school day.  unless i'll be able to make it at night after school.  we'll see how it goes.  speaking of Belle, i wanna meet her soon.  she'll be free the whole of this week except for come friday, so i'm thinking of meeting her come saturday or sunday when the BF is working.  i can't meet her tomorrow because of my oral exam and a short lepak session after that.  thursday pulak??  well, BF will be freeeeee for me the whole of thursday :DDDDD weeeeeeeeee!!!  i'm uber happy liao!!  so after so many months of not sending me to school, he will finally be starting the routine of sending me to school again :) i miss that actually.  i don't wanna put too much hopes on this thursday, but i know he will not disappoint me :)  BF always makes my wishes come true, though sometimes he can be a total jackass (hehehehe).

speaking of BF, he came over just now when Red Thread was on.  he came over for a quick meet up right after he finished work because he needs some rest at home before going to work tomorrow.  he took the initiative to call me and meet me up though time was limited.  omyyy.  he really knows how to make me scream happily into the phone (blushes......).  anyways, I WANT TO WATCH HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE!!  not to mention my cravings for THE HAUNTING AT CONNECTICUT, OBSESSED, ORPHAN (out come august 11th) and some other cool shits showing in theatres.  OMYYYY i need a breather :/  i've already watched transfomers: revenge of the fallen, TWICE- once with my family and the second time with adie (@ vivo).  BF and i also already watched ice age 3, so now??  literally broke.  lol.

p/s.  this morning, Amin's reaction to me calling out to his name in the canteen was uber priceless.  lol.  damn i miss sitting with danial and him during break.  hmph. stupid swine flu!!  because of some stupid ''safety'' school procedures, students of different classes aren't allowed to mix around during school as much as possible- which seems pointless because we all mingle before and after school anyways -.-''

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i can't believe these mediocre shit.  now the news telecast is manipulating people to think arwah abg jackson kite ni gay -.-  CRAP.  why can't the media just leave him alone?  he's gone for goodness sake.  at least let him rest in peace larhh -.......-