the title is lying.  as simple as that.  as much as i WANT to enjoy every minute of my singlehood, there will surely come a time when i feel so awefully lonely.  i admit i do envy seeing my friends so dang happy with their better halves.  i even envy them for having tiffs with their significant halves.  that's because they do not realize it NOW that they are lucky enough they are still able to quarrel with their partners, and still get to reminisce about it together in the future.  as for me, everything is gone.  i've lost everything.  i've lost all hope and faith.  but l0oking at the brighter side of this, i'm not at a total loss because adie is still my friend and my brother.  *sigh*  still, things are different that way to0.  i don't even dare get near him ohok. 

it's not that i haven't moved on, but i just feel that things can be VERY lonely compared to when i was attached.  hmm....  i know this is part and parcel of life.  guess i still have a lot of adjusting to do huh??  adie, i want to see you happy with the one that you love.  though your girl is bearing hatred towards me for dono-what-reason-oso, i don't have anything personal against her.  let HER be the reason you wanna live through every day of your life.  let HER be the reason you can't wait to go to work every single day of your life.  let HER be the reason you love your life.  let HER be the reason you laugh and smile.  it's ohok to let go- i tell myself.  it's just difficult to forget about the past.

oh g0d, now I'M crying.  lol.  guess those memories just came fl0oding back huh??  guess so.  luckily i've deleted my multiply and photobucket a/c.  as for my imeem a/c, i can't seem to cancel my subscription.  dang.  i still have to delete our photos from my imeem and webshots a/c.  hmmm...  leceh or what??  ahhh anyways adie, thanks for the happy drink tonight.  yes, i met him.  abe asl eh?  haha.  somehow, that oreo crush did make me feel a bit better.   g0od night :)