i ended up eating my own words of applying for DPA.  i was in a total mad rush to complete the blanks in time before i got automatically logged off, so i decided to forget the idea of applying for DPA.  i might as well join the others in the JAE next year right??  anyways, i got home from school at 2.45 pm, and i had to finish the form before 4.  by the time i got hold of the computer and turned on every single application online, the clock was already ticking like a time bomb.  i did download the sample worksheet but what the heck?!  time still mattered ohok.  so i suppose it wasn't worth the try because my mind was completely blank and i typed a lot of crap and shits.  my first reason why i wanted to be a paralegal student at TP ended with a pathetic 4 figure number when the word limit was only 600 :(

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school was very tiring but BORING today.  nothing's new.  there are rumours going on that 2 students from school is affected by the H1N1 virus.  no comments there.  other than that, O level oral is just 2 days away.  if i screw this up, i'm done for.   i've got social studies to complete, but i couldn't care any less.  i'll finish it in a moment, once i'm done with things online.  which just reminds me i have to complete this forum discussion at E-blaze regarding some MT stuff :/

life just feels so different without my hp :( i really feel like crying till my eyes bleed.  this is worse than an emotional heartbreak ohok!  i swear!  all these time i've been so careful with my phones yet out of the blue, this man had to come into my life to ruin it in a split second- for a lifetime.  ohok2.  i sound pathetic right there, but who cares?!  I FEEL PATHETIC!  literally :(  without a phone, it seems so difficult to contact adie.  now that he works full time shift with only a day off within a week, I REALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING :'( speaking of my adie, i couldn't wait to talk to him on the phone just now right after the monday night show on CH5, but sadly enough dearest baby has to get some rest because of a headache. :)))))   tadi sexcited sekejap seyy!!  lol.  da macam budak2 kecik dating first time gitu kn???  hmm yes i feel grateful i even feel that way.  seems like everything is so new despite all our odd times we've gone through.

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adie gave me an uber shock this afternoon.  i felt like punching him, but gladly i didn't :)  he did promise me he would come over to my place once he sends the car back to sembawang.  at around 3 pm gitu, i got a call from him on my sister's phone saying that he was at work.  he told me he came back to work after sending the car.  i got so uber sad and disappointed (yes, i am that much of a spoilt brat) that i literally screamed into the phone.  usually if he thinks i'm not being understanding towards his situation, he'll scream back and we'll get into a pathetic fight which can go on for hours.  just now he was very calm and collected, however.  so that got me thinking, what the hell was he up to?!  skali he ignored my dang sadness and expressionlessly told me he'd call me back later.  ade aku dudok situ mcm budak bodow nak nanges kesedihan psl rindu matair aku..  suddenly there was a voice at the door.  ADIEEEEEEEEE!!  happy per aku?!!  tak terkata babe!!!  pat pintu dier da tersengih2 cam budak2 baru dpt gula2 -.-  very cute mentak kna giget!!

moral of my story??  life is always full of surprises- be it bad or good.  accept them with open arms and be grateful for whatever that comes at you.  it is always easier said than done, but that's what matters most actually.  mcm matair aku yg satu nier.  to me, he isn't the typically romantic guy every girl would dream for, but when he does something so-called romantic, i feel like a million dollars (blush)....

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thanks for the comment naurah.  whether i like it or not, i have to smile even when my heart is aching...